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What is Babesia? Where is my Ferretin?

I wanted to share some of the WHY behind the Babesia that I am fighting tonight.  Babesia is one of the co-infections that the same ticks that gave me Lyme Disease have given to me as well.  Many of you have asked why I am always so tired or weak and fatigued… I know it seems like it should have a simple answer, but it is quite convoluted… so here it is!

I am extremely LOW in ferretin (ferretin is a blood-cell protein that is in your iron).  I have had severely low ferretin for about 7 years that we know of and I would routinely go to a specialist to receive six very painful infusions over the course of two weeks.  I would have to repeat this course about every 3-5 months depending on how quickly my ferretin would go from a level of about 450 down to single digits.  No doctors or specialists, nor Cory and I could ever figure out why my ferretin would disappear so rapidly and without a trace of losing abnormal amounts of blood.  I would cook on a cast iron skillet, eat loads of all the “high-in-iron” foods, I would take supplements, etc…  no matter what I did… my ferretin would literally disappear.  This cost us about a gazillion dollars and without insurance coverage was a HUGE stress for years of this treatment with no knowledge of the WHY!

Soooooo… fast forward to fall of 2016 and I was again receiving insanely painful, but supposed to be safer than ferretin infusions:  ferretin injections.  These injections were much, much more cost effective, but even more painful, they stained my skin like tattoos on my honey.  I have what now look like large ugly bruises and to this day, they hurt quite badly.  These injections were only able to raise my ferretin levels a few points even while doing them at least two times each week.  I would alternate sides of my buns to have these huge needles used on each day and we PRAYED for helpful results.

Throughout all of these years of infusions and injections, Cory and I never stopped looking for the REASON for my ferretin loss… I searched each and every way I could think of.  One day, last fall, my doctor used the phrase: “What is sequestering your ferretin?”… I literally wrote it down in his office and I searched using that exact phrase and what I found confirmed not only what was sequestering my ferretin, but also that I had Chronic Lyme Disease.  You see, what I found with that searched phrase was that Babesia which is a co-infection of Lyme Disease literally solely feeds on ferretin.  This was ground breaking and literally the biggest day of my medical history to date as we had seriously suspected for sooooooo long that I had Lyme Disease.  Each doctor throughout the last 25 years that I had seen and my parents or Cory or myself had asked to test me for Lyme had always told me that it was not possible to contract Lyme Disease on the West Coast.  Some even went further to say that they did not believe in Lyme and even if I tested positive for it… they would NOT treat me for it because it does NOT exist.

I knew I had found the answer to sooooo much and I also had a doctor who listened the next day when I called with my heart racing out of my chest!!!  Praise God for that silly searched phrase… I will never ever ever forget that feeling of relief, fright, and to be quite honest another wave of pure frustration with all the doctors who wrote me off for years or who were so closed minded that they weren’t willing to look outside the box and HELP me.

IMG_0126 IMG_0029Needless to say… we immediately stopped all of my infusions and injections of ferretin.  Each time I would receive these treatments I was literally feeding the very thing that was plaguing my body in horrendous ways.  The very babesia disease that was causing seizures, pain, severe fatigue, weakness, sleeplessness, etc… was growing into a HUGE, and strong army inside me and was wrecking me more and more each day.  When your ferretin gets as low as mine you are incredibly weak, you are fatigued beyond imagination, you cannot think clearly, you cannot hold a thought, you have no memory, and even though you are soooo tired and weak, you cannot sleep.  It feels like you are dying from the inside.  I have told countless doctors, my husband, and my parents often that “I was dying from the inside” and that “my organs were slowing down or felt like they were being suppressed”.  These are direct feelings from the low ferretin and the babesia.

Soooooo… I hope that all of this explanation helps to explain why when I say that I have low ferretin and friends recommend I just take this supplement or go get that injection… this is my why I cannot.  Trust me, if there was anything simple or complex I could do… I would!  Right now, I am killing off the babesia with very strong medicines multiple times each day.  I am having blood draws to stay on top of my ferretin levels as if the levels become an emergency, I will have to get infusions of ferretin even at the cost of feeding these little devils.  I am also continuing to detox like crazy to remove the dead disease and the toxins that it brings with it.

Thank you for letting me explain another part of this super duper complex disease to you.  Please continue to pray for complete healing for all five of us!  We are pressing on and are committed to “Live It Out”… but we are feeling quite discouraged lately.

XO

Sincerely, Dani

Psalm 147:3  He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 55:22  Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved.

Isaiah 41:10  Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Isaiah 40:31  But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

 

Pack Light & Love Heavy

I just finished tucking the kiddos in tonight, and I am sitting next to them on my bed starting to write this post.  I’m missing Cory madly as he’s been gone on the mainland back home in Bend for over a week working on Lone Mill as well as working tirelessly on our home so that it is ready for whatever is next.

I’ve been reminded today to pack light and love heavy.  I’ll tell you that I never ever expected to have to leave all our things, all our people, all our animals, and all our comforts so suddenly… but good has come from it for sure.  It is the only way that I have ever found to SLOW DOWN!  We instantly left our crazy schedules, kiddos and I dropped all commitments, we couldn’t say yes to anything else… and for someone who didn’t know how to say no, this is not a place I thought I’d ever be able to be at.

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We had to pack light… we came with 6 checked bags and our carry ons. We don’t have too much clutter (yet).

We are able to love heavy… we have eachother and I am fighting fiercely for beauty-full family times.  We jumped into an amazing church family that has embraced us, they check on us, they include us, they are messy humans just like we are… but they are truly living out being the “hands and feet of Christ”.  We have been able to start spending time with Great Auntie Joan over here each week and we all sure love her.  We get lots of time with my brother Joel and his sweet girl Ally… they are here for us and have dropped everything at times that we needed help.  Just tonight, we had a lovely dinner with Cory’s parents who are visiting for a few weeks and an aunt and uncle too.

I am learning to make my YES matter, to not commit to too much, to love richly, to enjoy moments, and to not be sooooo hard on myself.

This isn’t where I thought our 2017 would have us.  We truly miss seeing faces of our family in Bend and our friends too.  We miss Jake our dog and Max and Harvey, Sergeant, and Huck (the other animals), I miss having a home and my bed, but we are choosing to find the beauty in this mess and when we really stop to count the blessings it is so full of beauty!

Please continue praying for:

Direction with our home/ ranch in Bend

Being able to afford a place here to call home for now

Severe Stomach pains to go away

Constant migraines to go away

Safe return to Oahu for Cory and sooooooon!

Finances for medical expenses and housing

HEALING

Praises for:

Cory getting home safely and his super hard work

Kiddos that are just taking this in stride

A roof over our heads

Friends

No Seizures

Less pain than at home

Live It OUT

Pack Light and Love Heavy!

Sincerely, Dani

Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases                   the power of the weak.

Matthew 5:37 Let your yes mean yes, and your no mean no. Anything more than this comes from the evil one.

Can I ask you a favor?

Hey there family and friends!  I was hoping to ask you each a favor… could you please each take the time to watch these two videos and share them on facebook, twitter, email, etc…???

We have to share this information.  This video is hard to watch, but it is so real.  I don’t know these people… but I was experiencing these same seizures every single day.  I have watched my husband, children, and our parents experience the fear that comes with these episodes.  I have wished I would die instead of have this amount of pain consume my body day in and day out.  I have been told these SAME EXACT things for over 25 years of my life… and I can assure you, this disease is violent, corrosive, debilitating, horrifying, more pain that I ever knew was humanly possible, and absolutely devastating to everyone who loves you.

These videos are of a young couple and two other ladies who have visited the same clinic we did in Germany.  They share how the Australian government views Lyme Disease (extremely similar to the USA), how they will only treat with two weeks of antibiotics, and how they do NOT believe it exists in their ticks or bugs.

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Outside of the St George Clinic

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My red pin in the middle of Oregon!

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Checking out of the hospital … one last pic in front of our room!

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I would do it all again here at this wonderful clinic… truly a blessing and it has marked the beginning of my health being restored!

Thank you for watching, sharing and continuing to pray for all of us infected by this disease and its co-infections.

Live It Out

Sincerely, Dani
Click HERE:   Part ONE

Then Click HERE:  Part TWO

 

We’re Weary… but Pressing On!

We’re still here, but man Cory and I are weary!

Many people are asking what is next?  Where we are?  When we are coming back home?… all these answers are still hard for us to come up with.  We are trying to figure out what is next, we are still here in Hawaii, and we wish we knew when we’d be coming back home.

There are no simple answers right now.  What we do know is that the cold was the reason my extreme pain was set into having seizures.  We know that since coming to Hawaii I have not had one single seizure.  I am still experiencing lots of pain, migraines, major neurological symptoms, and I am barely getting any sleep.  However… given the seizures being gone, the fear of our nights turning into horrible pain and seizure episodes on the kiddos faces slowly fading, Cory realizing that does NOT have to be our normal over here, all make me feel like there is no reason to even complain about the other symptoms at all!

We need to find a short term solution to our property/home in Bend so that we can afford to rent a place over here (we thought prices in Bend were high!?  LOL).  So… if any of you know of someone who is needing a short term, furnished to the hilt, beautiful large home just minutes from town and yet so private and secluded… please send them our way ASAP!

I am continuing to take very strong antibiotics, antiparasitics, a gazillion pre and probiotics, detoxes in every way possible, and I am doing my darndest to stay very, very warm at all times.  (much easier over here than in Bend’s snow… but believe it or not, Hawaii does indeed have a winter season as well.  We have had many cooler days, gobs of rain and I literally snuggle under a heated blanket even here to keep the seizures away!)

We are weary of the constant battles we’ve been facing.  We won’t give up…  instead, we will rest our weary souls in Him!

Please pray for these things:

Complete healing in my body.

No more pain in my stomach

No more migraines

Sleep Sleep Sleep

Lucy has been sick with a bad cough for almost 3 weeks now

We need housing

We need our home in Bend to be rented out ASAP

Cory will be leaving us here to go home and pack up our personal items so the house can be rented out right away

Wisdom for health and housing decisions

And… a huge prayer request for our family who just lost my cousin to a snowmobile accident.  He left huge holes in the hearts of his wife Amy, his brother Jeff, his mom Candy, and all of us who loved him soooooo much!  Cole loved Jesus with his whole heart and is out of pain here on this earth now… but the sting left to those who loved him here is immense.

We are praising God for:

The ability to be here at all

No seizures since arriving

Less stress about how each night will end

and that His mercies are new each morning… His faithfulness is so GREAT!

We love you all and are soooo thankful for your continued love, support and prayers!

Keep on Living IT Out!

XO

Sincerely, Dani

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Lucy is loving surfing and getting pretty good at it too!

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Grey is still our happy little one! You’d think all three of them were born here as they just seem to fit right into everyday life!

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Hayden is quite the surfer these days! He pretty much lives for the day after school and housework is done… he’s addicted and is so fun to watch!

Joy > Seizures

Once again, it has been too long since my last post…  but this time there is finally a good reason for the time gone by.  On December 23rd after beginning some new and very strong medicines to fight off this horrible disease “babesia”, I began having insane bouts of pain in my head and stomach which led to a long night of seizure episodes.  These seizures and horrific pain nights became a daily/ nightly occurrence and each night I became more and more weak and less able to fight through the pain.  After a few nights in a row of too many tears to count, having to be “jaw thrusted” so that my breathing would start again countless times, my left eye twitching to the point of being very achy, my right hand and arm convulsing so much that it completely cramped up, and amounts of pain that I have no words to describe… I found myself going through these nights without tears and with no fight left in me.  I hadn’t given up, I was just so exhausted from the pain and the work that it takes to make it through each night.  I told my mom at one point that “I had no more tears to cry.”

Bend has been having some very, very extreme cold weather this season and I was noticing that each time I was outside even for just a short time, my joints would begin to seize up.  My knees and back were the worst by far and it was debilitating for sure.  But what was worse is that these spots in my head along with my neck would tighten up so much immediately when I got cold and then these tightened spots would knot up resulting in the severe pain each day that led straight to seizures.  I was having anywhere from 12-30 seizures EACH and EVERY night.  One day, these started at 4pm which means that it was no longer possible to hide what was going on in my body from Grey.  In the past these would not start until about 8pm… so she was naive to this and I wanted it that way.  It absolutely broke my heart to see her sweet face as she would hide, cry, and be so afraid.  And it broke her little six year old heart to watch her mommy writhing in pain, crying, and fighting with all I had.

Cory and I knew that these episodes were definitely onset by the cold and some by the medicine that was new to my body too.  We had to find a way to get out of the cold quickly if there was ANY chance, even a small one that these episodes could be lessened.  Thankfully, Cory’s family is from Hawaii and has a home that is being remodeled and we are able to stay here for a little bit before it becomes a rental property.  My parents literally bought us one way tickets over here and less than 48 hours later we hopped on a plane and made our way to warmth.  Praying the entire flight that this would in fact work… we were DESPERATE for relief… all of us needed just a glimpse of hope!

Well… we made it after 21 hours of travel, over 6 hours of delays, etc… and God has been answering prayers.  I have not had any seizures since arriving in Hawaii.  It is winter over here too… which means there are some cooler days.  I got pretty cool a few days ago and never recovered and that night was full of really bad pain, but thankfully no seizures.  It seems that my body is very, very sensitive to the cold, so overall this is a great place to be.

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Beach time!

I am beyond thankful for the relief.  Thankful that there is a home we can crash at.  Thankful for plane tickets. Thankful for my brothers vehicle over here.  Thankful for a doctor who will treat me long distance.  Thankful I homeschool the kiddos and we haven’t had to skip a beat.  Thankful that Cory works for himself and is portable.  Sooooo very thankful for less fear on our kiddos faces, less stress on Cory each night, and less pain and no seizures for me!!!

Please pray for:

-wisdom for our next steps

-seizures to stay away

-pain to continue getting better

-lots of work for Cory… we still have all our bills at home and lots of new here

-friends over here

-complete healing for all five of us

 

God is good all the time and I am excited to see what He has for our family in 2017.  Thank you for your continued support, prayers, and love on our family.

“Live It Out”

Sincerely, Dani

XO

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Creative Writing, and History on the beach today!

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My bro and his sweet girlfriend made us an amazing homemade dinner… it was delicious! Thanks Joel and Ally!

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2016… there she went!

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Kiddos baking 10 dozen cookies! Yummy!

It’s a brand spankin’ new year!  This New Years’ Eve left me emotional… I felt like highlights of our year scrolled through my mind as midnight quickly approached.  2016 was filled with so much good, amazing kiddos, lots of family time, pond swimming, seventh, sixth, and first grades, friends, and good-old fashioned fun on the ranch.  However, it was also a super duper rough year in a lot of ways too.  We faced tough decisions with health, experienced incredible pain, and fought crazy hard to beat diseases that plagued our bodies.  This last year was harder than I can tell you on our family, watching our kiddos experience fears like they have created such a deep hurt on my heart.  Knowing that Cory would always be beside me was wonderful, yet seeing the toll it was taking on him… well, it took a toll on me. Knowing that my parents were fearful of what was happening with their daughter, son in law, and grands at any given time, and having them rush up to help at a moments’ notice… the list just goes on and on…  So, while there was definitely good in 2016, it was time to close the door on last year and move onto this new year.

I’m thankful for 2016 because…

my husband loves me fiercely and leads our family tirelessly.

my three kiddos are fun, smart, caring, loving, love Jesus, and make me smile daily.

my parents, in-laws, siblings, grandparents have rallied around us in support and love.

our community has backed us with news stories, fund raising, and meals.

our hospital stay in Germany was 100% successful.

my doctor in Bend is so helpful and hasn’t given up on me yet.

my Savior has carried me through many times I couldn’t walk on my own.

What are you thankful for?  When I really sit down and count my blessings there are sooooo many, and yes; they ALWAYS outweigh the ugly stuff even when it’s really, really bad!

Don’t forget to count your blessings and cling to the hope found in Jesus!

Sincerely, Dani

XO

My Fight Continues…

I’ve been wanting to sit down and write this update out for quite some time now… but you know how life just keeps running off ahead of you?  Well, tonight I’m making it happen!

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Lucy Lu was helping push my last IV of the day!

I’m still at the doctor daily receiving IV treatments to detox all these dead Lyme toxins from my body.  These IV treatments are also used to kill off the other two co-infections that I have.  I have also been doing a very strong and complex herbal protocol to try to kill off the Babesia and Bartonella.  However, no matter how much or how long I do this herbal treatment along with the intense IV treatments, I have not been able to kill these other diseases and they have to go!

I have been researching through the night endlessly, waiting for a breakthrough in treatment options, hoping for new research in the Lyme community, praying for wisdom, and I have come to realize that the ONLY option I have left is going to be some very, very intense anti-parasitic and anti-biotic treatment.  I have NOT wanted to go down this route as Lyme Disease destroys your immune system, hormones, thyroid, adrenals, etc… and I’ve been working so hard to rebuild all these systems since Germany that it feels so backwards to take these drugs knowing that they will work against all these areas once again.  However; I am out of options and Cory and I both agree that I have to start walking down the path to kill these terrible diseases off now.  We cannot wait until the awful symptoms from them continue to increase.  We have to get me well so that we can treat our kiddos and continue to work towards a healthy family!

Soooooo… now I have to decide which meds to take, weigh out the pros and cons of each drug, and work on the financial side of whatever path we decide to go down.  I am super stressed about the possibility of my seizures coming back, the pain overtaking my body again, and what our lives are going to look like as soon as I start this new treatment.  We know, just as it did when treating Lyme that I will get worse before I get better.  We just don’t know what that “worse” will look like this time around and I am scared.  I will be making a choice that effects my hubby, kiddos, parents, in-laws, and siblings so much… I am not sure if I can handle watching the intense fear that plagued those I love most again.

Please be in prayer for our decisions, for our finances, for our entire family to have peace and strength as we start wading through this next phase ahead of us.

We are praising God for the opportunity to forge ahead into this next phase that would not have been possible without an effective Lyme treatment in Germany and positive detoxing here at home!

Sincerely, Dani

I’ll leave you with a quick update picture style of our last couple of weeks 😉

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Straight out of “Grease”… Hayden and Lucy were off to help at our Church’s Big Pumpkin Party!

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And don’t forget Mary Poppins who got to enjoy all the festivities!

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Family time at the Veteran’s Day Parade 2016! Thank you to ALL who served and sacrificed for our freedoms… We are so grateful for your service!

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I mustered up all the energy I had and we ventured out to Devils Lake for a photography field trip… these three sure have great eyes for photography!

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Man, I LOVE these three…

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This little one is pure sunshine!

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Lu and Gig sitting in their “box cars” studying verses for Awana’s Drive-In Movie night!

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Just some fun anatomy lessons… and dancing of course too!

Do NOTHING Monday!

Thats right…  I was in desperate need of a “Do Nothing Day”. I think we all get there at times. I felt like it was super important for our whole family…  Greys little heart is hurting and she’s struggling with me leaving each day for doctors appts. She needed me…  and how long will I be able to say that?  Hayden and Lucy are older, but I can see it effecting them just as much though they can hide it and push through better than their little sis. They needed a day where we were in sweats and had no agenda…  Cory needed it too, and maybe one day I’ll be able to talk him into enjoying it with us😜…  but today was NOT his day to do nothing…  in fact it’s almost 1 AM and I’m still waiting for him to come up to bed!

I could use prayer as we try to figure out what we can cut out of our schedule. We need time at home. Time together as a family. Dates with our kiddos. Time for Cory and I to set aside and communicate. Right now I feel like I’m not good at anything, but I so desperately want to be!  I’m struggling with getting out of bed. I hurt. I don’t have any energy at all. And I’m so insanely COLD😬, yet this is only the beginning of the cold here!

I don’t share this to complain…  just in hopes of being real, honest and letting you know what we could use prayer with!  God sees all of this and the rest that I’ve left out…  He’s got us!

Im already looking forward to another Do Nothing Day soon!  And in the meantime, if you know anyone who wants to house swap with us for the next 4-6 months…  they can ski, and enjoy all our winter sports here in Bend and live on our ranch and we will swap for their tropical destination!!!😜  Send them our way!  (A girl can dream, RIGHT!?)

Here are a few pics from our week…  gosh, I love these three and their daddy!❤️

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A few nights ago we celebrated Jakes birthday! He enjoyed his peanut butter, cheese cubes, and meat! He wasn’t so sure about those 6 candles though!

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I had a dentist appt and we got to go spend some time with Great Gma! Man, we sure love her… she’s quite the special lady!

XO. Sincerely, Dani

detoxing, detoxing, DETOXING

I’ve had a LOT of questions about our detox regiment… and I feel like it’s time to answer some of those questions on here now.

Just like how no two people are the same, detoxing for everyone can vary and should be set up individually in some instances.  We have been working soooooo hard on detoxing since two full months before heading to Germany.  The same treatments were continued while at the Hospital in Germany, and again immediately after we returned home.  All along this journey, I have felt like detoxing was going to be one of the BIGGEST pieces of this whole process, and have pushed to do so as hard as I can.

Cory and I are at the doctor for IV’s 4 days each week and it looks like this:

Monday- High dose Vitamin C/ Artesinate

Tuesday- PTC/ Glutathione

Wednesday- PTC/ Glutathione

Thursday- Artesinate

This is slightly less than before we went to Germany, as we were also doing one MAH treatment with UVB light each week as well.  After getting home from Germany, Cory and I have been doing the exact same treatment, but I started feeling like something was off for Cory and immediately asked to have labs drawn.  We found that his liver enzymes are quite elevated and I started reading up on the “hows” of fixing it, and the “why’s” of how they got high.   We have decided to alter Cory’s detox routine and use some alternative treatments.  I was also reading up on “binders” like cholestyramine, bentonite clay, psyllium husk, activated charcoal, etc…  I really believe that we have been purging the toxins very well.  Once the toxins are released, whatever isn’t excreted can be re-absorbed into fat tissues.  I think that a big problem with detoxing is that you can overwhelm your organs with toxins that end up not being completely purged so to speak… I call it a “dump and purge”.  You can detox or (dump) too much if you are not also (purging) really well and sometimes you need more fiber or binding agents in your body to get it all OUT!

Basically… this is a lot of words to tell you that I do believe that there are some great basic detox methods which we have been doing for quite some time and steadily now, but I also know that it is extremely important to make sure you are also using other methods to detox and you should be alternating them constantly.

We are also doing these following detox’s:

Bentonite Clay

Activated Charcoal

Cholestyramine

Ionic Detox Footbaths

Dry Skin Brushing

We take Isagenix’s Cleanse 4 Life, Isa Flush, and Ionix Supreme

Cory is using Pekana Homeopathic Detox Drops

AND we both take some super duper awesome pre and probiotics!

We are also looking to buy a Far-Infrared Sauna soon as that is something that we need to do a few times each week.

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I’ve been having some awful itching on my hands and clear tiny bumps all over my palms and up and down each finger… they are now incredibly dry and peeling. Just one of the many ways that detoxing has been effecting us.

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After each IV treatment we wrestle with extreme fatigue, exhaustion, and often times horrible headaches along with the MOST intense brain fog and lack of being able to concentrate we’ve ever dealt with😬

Staying ahead of the detox game is the most important thing you can do in a Lyme and co-infection battle.  If you are not careful you can go into organ failure, be extremely sick and in extreme cases… go septic and die.  It is crucial to not only kill, but excrete these toxins in a timely and safe manner… but it takes so much time, energy and sooooooo much moolah.

If you are in a detox battle… stay the course and do not be afraid to change things up when they quit working for you… fight for the right answers, after all; you know your body better than anyone else!

XO, Sincerely Dani

Romans 12:12b. Don’t quit in hard times; pray all the harder. 

the battle is FIERCE…

Another week… 5 more days of IV’s… more fatigued than we knew was possible… headaches are almost constant… this battle is fierce…

We are tired.

We hurt.

We are so weak.

We cannot concentrate.

We are lonely.

We feel very discouraged.

BUT

We won’t quit.

We are tough.

We will push through.

We will stick together.

We are clinging onto HOPE.

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With Lyme dead and constant detoxing underway… these other diseases are showing their ugly faces and showing off with all kinds of awful symptoms.  I find myself scared half of the day.  Worrying about all the new things happening in our bodies, worried about how I can press through this new day and be a good mom, wife, patient, and coach.  Stressed about paying all these big bills that are endless.

Basically… my head is spinning with all these things that are life as we know it today.  I wish that this could be a positive and uplifting post, but it is honest and raw because it is our life right now.  What I do know is that somehow, somewhere or for someone… God has a plan in all of it.  So, as I close my laptop tonight; I am choosing once again to lay down my worries, stresses, burdens, hopes, dreams, my hubby, and each of these precious kiddos at the very feet of The One who holds Heaven and Earth.  He is good and I choose to give Him my BeautyFULL mess tonight!

Sincerely, Dani

Rest in HIS hope tonight with me:

Jeremiah 32:17 Ah, Lord GOD! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you.

Joshua 1:9, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” 

Isaiah 41:10, “Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”