I struggle daily for some crazy reason to sit my rear down and type here… not that I don’t have enough to write about, but that it won’t matter anyways. So today as I finished praying and asking/ arguing with the Lord about what purpose it could serve to go blog, I came into my office and plopped myself down in front of my laptop and I kid-you-NOT… that very second Grey woke up from her nap. 
(here she is loving being part of her newest little cousin’s photo shoot! )
You see, part of my health stuff has been that I cannot process more than one thing at a time anymore. If I hear anything else at all… it is enough to completely break my thoughts and jumble my words. I have lost so much of my memory and at times it moves me to tears. So, the fact that nap is over now and I am already struggling to write… well, just bare with me! 😉
As I was reading the Word today and dwelling on this season of resting in God, waiting on direction, and being always thankful, the goose bumps set in. You see, Cory’s last day of employment was yesterday and while we had been waiting for six months for that day to finally arrive, I felt no extra sense of urgency, un-rest, or stress… I simply felt thankful in the waiting. And because I like to overanalyze why I am lacking emotions that the world would tell me to have and feel, I started wondering if I was just losing my mind. Proverbs 8:32-36 says:
“Now then, my children, listen to me;
blessed are those who keep my ways.
33 Listen to my instruction and be wise;
do not disregard it.
34 Blessed are those who listen to me,
watching daily at my doors,
waiting at my doorway.
35 For those who find me find life
and receive favor from the Lord.
36 But those who fail to find me harm themselves;
all who hate me love death.”
Now, I already know that I have lost loads of my mind… as I said earlier today! But I strive to be a blessed waiting daughter watching at His door and waiting at His doorway as this verse says. So, this feeling of just waiting and being thankful in the waiting is something that I am working on getting used to.
I can’t help but wonder if in this “waiting” season which seems like it’ll never end quite honestly… if it is allowing me all the more time to dwell earnestly on God’s rich blessings in my life. For the last almost 11 years of this waiting on healing, and then waiting on direction for our family with work these last six months; I have realized that the blessings that I have always counted are still blessings, but there are sooooo many others that I never would have thought of as even good things. And now I see them as generous blessings in my life! 
(these are the 5 sets of tootsies waiting on direction from God…
“Lord, I pray we stay still and wait on you before we move. Amen”)
I found some scribbles in my Beth Moore Esther Biblestudy guide that I had written and it totally sums up my heart at this stage in our families life… “God is just as purposeful of what He does NOT reveal as what He does. Trust Him, rest in Him!”
Jeremiah 29:11-13 gives great hope for our waiting and says: 11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” and
Psalm 100:3 proclaims it again saying,
“Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.”
So, if you find yourself in the season of waiting… waiting on healing, waiting on finances to improve, waiting on finding God’s direction in dating, marriage, parenting, or just life in general, I would encourage you to wait, rest and be thankful for this time that He is allowing you. Be patient. Be in the Word. Be in prayer. Be listening. And don’t’ ever forget His rich promises. Memorize them, scribble them on sticky notes all over your home and in your car. This life is a mess, but in Him it is a “beauty full mess”!
~sincerely, dani